lend me your words

My last post really does not do justice to the complexity of the situation here, nor does it provide an adequate explanation of my personal feelings. Perhaps its because I've yet to grow comfortable in my new American - Israeli shoes, but for whatever reason I'm having an extremely hard time expressing myself. However, tonight I read this article and I think it does a fair job of explaining what's going on... and what it means to support Israel.

"There is, though, a third stream of Jews - perhaps not the widest one, but I believe quite significant - who have more complex and uncomfortable feelings on the matter. They care deeply for Israel and understand even why its government felt compelled to launch the devastating Operation Cast Lead, but they are extremely disturbed and hurt by the level of civilian deaths and destruction that almost seems part and parcel of the action. Surely, they say, there must, there has to be another way of doing this. And they live with those doubts, often unexpressed, even among families and close friends because the worst thing they find is that others around them don't seem to discern between the different nuances, and can't find in themselves compassion for the dead and wounded on the other side. They begin asking themselves very awkward questions: Are they surrounded by latent racists, or is something wrong with them that denies the feelings of certainty of those around them? Or does everyone have similar doubts but are simply afraid to express them?"